8.19.2007

paper.airplane.dreams

...In a dream I am wrapped around you - but, still, I stare up in confusion; caught in webs of discomposure; tangled intricacy. Yet even in dreams I know that you're my love. This is simple. My heart melts again & again in your arms. Without caution, yellow words escape from my heart out of my mouth and I'm afraid...


"Are we able to do the things this love requires - willing?'

"Have we lost sight of this - lost?"

"Could we believe, once more, in the love that belonged to only us?"


SILENCE... and I melt again - differently this time - like wax - burning - falling farther from the flame. For an instant, as I stand at the exit stairwell, I look back at you. Your light is consuming as always & your soul exudes a familiar warmth....comfortable.. beautiful. home.. and the thought of your absence leaves me petrified - paralyzed. I love you... I love you, deeply.


As I look into your sullen eyes so as to say goodbye somehow the sorrow that's surrounded us finds the strength to surface & sting... My eyes fill with tears of naivity - tears pour with prayers for powers to clean hearts...clean hearts. Tears fall with prayers for powers to mean forever. Break the make- believe - make right. Tears pray for powers... but i'm drenched in reality.


"Let my love melt the hard spots of your heart. Quietly believe. Love me today - tomorrow - never leave...

Stay with me - Dream with me."


My eyes open - I'm awake & you are all about me. I seem to breathe you, hear you, feel you in me & around me.

& though your body is absent - it could not make my love more real.


*i wish i knew how to undo the knot that's tied inside..

The knot i tied in you .*